Sunday, September 29, 2013

i was a cutter, and it wasn't for attention !!!!!

i was a cutter as a young teen, i started cutting at the age of 13, i can thankfully say at this point in my life, i don't have many scars, i have very few, the first time i told any one i was a cutter, i told my mother, all she had to say about it was you shouldn't do that for a attention. i was sad to think my mother thought this. i found out many years later that she had done the same things to her own body, as time went on i still cut, i cut from the time i was 13 till the time i was 27 years old, may things had happened to me in my life that made me feel like i needed to cut, from being alone in the world to being raped in 2000. i felt trapped in my own body,i felt as if no one understood me or even cared. i did try to commit suicide. ( 6 times actually). i want to tell my story due to the fact there are more and more people out there feeling the same kinda pain,i had a long road to recovery, and i had to be strong even when it was hard. i don't want to see others go threw this, it took me 19 years to over come my problem with cutting, i really want to help others before its 2 late. i over came my cutting in a way that took a long time and i found my husband on that journey, when he first saw me cut, it was hard for him, i did try to hide it as i had so many times before with everyone else around me. but he saw the cuts on my back, He wasent mad, he was sad, sad to see that i felt that much pain deep in side that i had to do this to my self, i figured he would just leave. ( who wants something broken any way) but my husband cleaned my back and bandaged me, he didn't look at me like i was broken. i asked him if he was going to leave m now? all he said was why would i leave you? your hurt, and in pain. you need my help, and i love you. as strange as that sounds. this was one of my steps of recovery, seeing some one cared about me, not what i had to offer them, not what i could do for them, but loved me just for who iam. nothing more or less. cutting is not for attention, people cute for many reasons. my cutting was like a release of all the emotions i held in side, all the hobblie things people would say to me, all the dirty looks, all the dreadful things that happened to me. it was my only way of emotional release. i want to help others like myself, so iam going to look for a program to donate to and iam going to make a nail polish. x amount of money will go towards the program, and help young teens and adult deal with this illness. the pitchure at the top of the butterflie, was a a cover up, underneath the butterflie is a large scar, and then my homedone tattto over it, it looks bad,

Saturday, September 28, 2013

wet and wild - Fergie - 34268 Mountain High nail polish

wet and wild - Fergie - 34268 Mountain High nail polish is a white base polish. with shards of gold glitter, and transparent clear shimmer glitters in shards and small hexs. this polish has such a simple application. this nail polish was 3.49 at walgreens. i felt as this was a good deal, i really like the fergie nail polish. so over all this was a great porduct. the color is great for x-mas or just winter.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

the devil wears polish - loki loves me nail polish

so today's polish is on loki love's me by the devil wears polish.
loki love's me is a white base with a tint of blue to it. it has teal shards and teal dots in it. some bigger dots and some smaller dots. this polish holds light pink hexes gold little dots and blur squares. as you can see the polish is packed with glitter. the application of this polish was so simple. i applied 2 coats of this polish. I love this polish for the simple fact i have not seen any other polish like this one. i have to admit its one of my fav's
so what do you think of this polish? if you would like to look at her polishes the link is here - her facebook page is here - and her blog is here-

Saturday, August 31, 2013

spotted - opi - fingers

i had heard all the hype about this fingers spotted product before it came out, i really wanted to know if it compared to spotted by opi. i found that that the brush on this top coat is very thin, this makes for a hard application as you can see no matter how much or how little i added it just would not work. you add a lot of top coat and you get a few spaces, you don't add enough and it looks like you wanted to make a lines in it, so over all this was not such a great product, its was extremely disappointing. as you can see in the last picture the spotted worked fine, well its opi spotted. opi spotted was a little tricky at first. but in the end was a great buy, its application is pretty easy, ( the trick is less is better) and the brush is a fully wide brush. making the application easy. on this hand you can see that i iused the opi spotted and it looks much better, the spotts are all over then nail and look al ot diffrent then the fingers brand, so i have to say opi is a better priduct at this point from my view if you you would like to buy either of these items, here are links and for the fingers spotted you can buy this at your local walmart

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

zoya maisie - holographic glitters

maisie by zoya is a light blue glitter polish, the application was great very simple, lots of crushes mylar in the bottle, to make the polish and your nails shine. i showed the polish in the day light and in aroom with darker light, its amazing how much shine this polish has this polish dry time was normal about 5 min to fully dry to the touch, so over all i love this,it was a good polish and i was amazed the color

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

girl obsessed polishes

so last week i got some nail polishes from girl obsessed,
they are amazing colors, 1, hot mess 2,berry mojito 3.berries and cream 4.draculaura 5. monarch butterfly 6.strobe its taken me a bit to get to this review of these great nail polishes, iam glad to be able to be posting them now, 1. hot mess is a sheer pink shimmer with black stars,white hex, large black, red and white hex small white and black hex, this polish is so pretty, sadly i was unable to wear it on my hands but i was able to swatch it on my plastic finger. 2. berry mojito is a great polish, the base is a very very light mint green, with circle glitters in it, the glitters are pink, green, and blue. there are pink and green micro glitters in it.and large pink holo glitters in it. 3 berries and cream this is a white base with pink,blue and teal glitter. the glitters are mostly small some are of a medium size. this polish was easy to apply glitters are threw out the application, and i had no issues applying this color. 4. draculaura , this is a pink base, with long black glitter,hex black glitters pink circles glitter,small pink hex glitters and sheer shard glitter, small white hex glitter and cool red and black hearts, the idea behind this polish was a cartoon character from monster high, draculaura. this polish is amazing my daughter love's it, she could not wait to wear this great polish. so here are her small fingers 5. monarch butterfly this is a clear base with glitters that are bright orange, white, gold, and black, and the best glitter in it is the holographic butterflies in it. i wore this polish over an orange, i tohught the application was great, drying time was good, and as always the glitter was amazing, 6. strobe was the last of these that i had received. this polish is super cool, there are to many kinds of glitters for me to tell you all of them.but they are, black, white and holographic silver glitters, this make a super cool glitter top coat, i fell in love with this polish the min i opened it, and funny enough i don't think i would have gotten it myself. but iam in love with it, and here is a pic of it alone on my short stubby nails, so all in all with each of these polishes there is something special about each of them, girl obsessed makes great polish and i love her stuff, this is her shop link, sadly she is on vacation right now but iam sure she will be back soon, or if you need a polish you can always contact her on her facebook page at the above link

Sunday, August 4, 2013

cq slate nail polish and Lm nail polish beauty #50

cq 575 color slate is a dark creamy green nail polish, its a great color. the brush is short, the bottle is a different shape then most bottles, it holds 0.4 fl oz od polish. the polish was great. when applying the first coat covered great and i added another layer, the nail polish dried fast and had no issues over all i think it was a great polish
i then added another polish as a top coat over the slate cq, it was number 50 from Lm nail polish beauty. its a clear polish with silver glitter, and holo stars. in a clear base. i applied one coat of this over the cq slate. it's a really pretty polish, the application was easy, the smell of this polish was a little strange. but it dried fine. the shape of the bottle is something along the lines of opi shaped bottles and this bottle holds 18 ml of polish. over all i like this polish. the stars stars in it are amazing. for extra stars i added some glitter stars from , Amy's Accessories on aliexress all items were purchased by me all options are my own

Friday, June 7, 2013

my pink dream polish

diana is a wonderful dark purple color with fine dark purple glitters. it came in my package as an extra for ordering. fruity pebbles was the polish i wanted. i saw it on her esty ( ) shop an thought wow thats going to be amazing!!!!! it was too, i love white base polishes, this on is no exception. the application was simple, the color was perfect and the glitters cam out all over the brush. i just love this polish 80's melt down and miami sun rise, are both mini polishes that came with my order, 80's melt down is a white base with neon glitters. the application was smooth and the glitters are wonderful. this is a great polish just like the others. mini miami sun rise is a glitter polish with a clear base. the glitters are neon. little hex and small squares and so much more pack this mini with glitter, application on the nail was smooth, the glitter came right out of the bottle, and went right on the nail. it a really great polish. s for the other polishes i will do another post on them at a later date, i hope you all enjoyed the review.

LynBDesigns nail polish

i order these polishes from, i waited about 2 weeks for them to come in. once they came in the mail, i was so happy, the colors are amazing, Neon Ballroom was the first color i saw. the black base with the neon glitters are amazing, my daughter saw this polish and wanted me to paint her nails with it. so that what i did. the application of this was was great, but the glitters at first were a little hard to find, but once i gave it a good shake it, the glitters were easy to find and easy to apply. the other polishes i have not tryed yet other then to swatch them for the above photo, so the with spike, i had not problumes with the glitter, it was great, a full brush full of bright amazing glitters, Everyone Needs a Thneed is a white base, with pink glitters and i love it its extremely creamy and again he glitters were easy to find with a little shake of the bottle, other wise these are amazing polish that look great in the bottle or on your fingers.

Monday, June 3, 2013

girl obsessed polish review

i tryed a bottle of sock monkey from a friend of mine name tami. she sent me the little bottle of sock monkey from the company name girl obsessed. it was am mini bottle. but when i saw this i was in awwww. The polish is a white base, black circle glitters, red and brown hex glitters. this polish is amazing. when i put it in i feel in love with it the application was great no looking for glitters. great consistency. over all i loved the experience i had with this product.
today we i did sally hensen fuzzy coat nail polish, i found the application to be harder then i liked, the formula was very thin. the colors are extremely pretty, i put top coat on them to protects them